I failed last night

 Hello.  Today I write humbly because I failed in my goal last night.  At first I forgot that I should write and then, when I remembered, I didn't want to get up and do it.  So I didn't do it.  

I'm anxious about today, as most Sundays my emotions are rough. The dissonance between the Gospel and my disobedience to what I feel should happen is more present in my mind.  Because of this my anxiety is significantly increased.  I find slight relief in that I'm doing a class today instead of normally attending service, but the anxiety is still there because I will be in that environment.

Again I'm brief, which feels a bit like neglect, but perhaps I will be more expressive with time.  I find that I simply don't have much to report after having slept and not immediately remembering any revelation that may have happened yesterday after my morning post.

I hope you have a good day,

Jeremy

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