Life - When It's Always Cloudy Inside™

 Hello again.  A few weeks ago, ironically, I decided to try to write two blog entries a day.  As you probably would have noticed by looking at my entries, I didn't follow through on that.   I really struggle with follow-through in general.  I get a lot of good ideas, and relatively frequently begin working on them.  But very rarely do I ever see an idea through to completion.  The reasons are mixed, but mostly relate to either anxiety or depression.  On writing that I can't help but think...  I wonder how many people struggle profoundly with anxiety or depression, but don't really realize it.  Or at least didn't realize it for a long time.   Many people seem to have a fear, ironically, that talking about any issues they have with self confidence or frequent concerns may prove them weak.  I believe that it just shows others that the reality is that everyone faces those issues and that most everyone dislikes having to ...

 Hello.  I'm not sure who will even find this, or when, but God has imposed on me that its important that I write this tonight.  This is another night where I'm struggling to sleep for a prolonged period of time.  I do have a medicine that is pretty reliable in helping, but I don't like being too dependent on it, so I'm being stubborn and not taking it.  A few minutes ago, before my last attempt to fall asleep, but after a further previous attempt to fall asleep, I decided to watch this weekend's sermon from Life.Church .   As their sermons often do when I tend to watch them, this one left a mark on me.  Now, I know "left a mark" is often used with negative connotations, but right now this isn't really that, but those words, portraying a lasting effect, is what I find most appropriate in this moment.  You see, Life.Church has been in a series called Christmas at the Movies.  Themed after their popular summer sermon series, that they ofte...

It just so happens tonight that I'm having trouble sleeping again.   I'm no stranger to trouble sleeping, but tonight is a bit different.  I can't sleep because I'm somewhat exited.  When I was first unable to sleep tonight though, it was a slight bit of happiness, enough that I was actually smiling.  I was happy because I had accomplished something in a video game that I had been trying to do for a couple of days.  Its funny how something so seemingly simple can have such a profound impact. So, lying awake, I began to think about my present ongoing mental state, as often happens when I can't sleep, or I'm particularly struggling with my mental health issues.  As I'm thinking I'm seeking something to do, and decide to read from my daily Bible reading plan.  I hadn't read in a few days, but I was trying to think of something to do which was relatively calm so that I might be able to easily get to sleep.  I did my reading and I still wasn't ver...