Another day, more anxiety, need for God

 It is so easy to dismiss that we are intended to rely on God.  Mostly, we love to take charge and control what we do.  It is mainly in situations that are likely to have a less desirable outcome that we begin to question what we should do.  

I've been dealing with this for a few weeks, but especially today.  I spoke with a recruiter about possibly getting a job as a programmer again after being out of work for several months.  The problem is that I am also in the process of accepting a job at a local vehicle service station.  In my mind I only considered the service station job as an "until" job.  However, it is a large commitment of resources to train someone and I know that the store manager is taking a risk in hiring me as it is all but guaranteed that I'll be unhappy in the position, but they had mercy on me since I needed some income.

To further complicate my position, when speaking the recruiter about the programming job yesterday I misled them saying the service station job was "part time", but I'm actually being hired as a full-time staff member.  Not only did I not give the service station staff the correct consideration, I further didn't treat the recruiter properly by being honest.  Sure, we all fail at times, but I felt like I needed to make an immediate correction this time.  I have replied to the recruiter apologizing, and in the process possibly ending any potential relationship with them and their company, but I did what was right.  I went against the flow.

All of that aside this morning, I'm thinking quite a lot about how to interpret God's words over my life.  I struggle to apply biblical truths to me.  I can see their truth in their authored context, but shifting my perspective toward seeing them as speaking to the character of God, and thusly being applicable to my relationship with Him, is difficult.

I have often thought lately about what it truly means to worship God and why I would want to do so.  Initially my answer was that I had no reason to do so, but one thing I realized, that should always be true for a Christian, is that He sent Jesus so that our sin wouldn't separate from him eternally.  The consequence of this separation would be that we would live in eternal torment.  Therefore God literally saved us from being in misery for the rest of existence.  As Christians, while we may suffer now, there is a time coming when we will no longer suffer.   This should always be a symbol of hope for us.  Even so it is extremely easy to ignore this hope because our problems seem so overwhelming.

I'll leave you today with one simple challenge.  Truly "think" when you celebrate God in worship.  Don't repeat words from duty, peer pressure, or habit.  Consider what you say in worship and what it means.